company flag at half mast this morning
and at two this morning i was too exhausted by trying to blank my mind by spodding, and crying off and on, and tried to go curl up in bed. but undistracted, my mind was filled with humans crushed with burning steel, the howling darkness and the horror of the unknown. i haven't seen or heard the video footage-- my mind is doing that for me quite well enough on its own. and in the end i got to sleep once i'd turned the light on, putting the chaos and Outside back on the other side of the wall where it belongs. lucky for me it's that easy.
ergh. how? i'm just about sickened to be human at the moment.